Three more big competitions to go. The longest season ever, starting from the 15th of April. It will end in November… One third left.
The next stop is in Paris, the World Championship! The event everybody aims at the whole year. Some go there to take a medal, some will do their best to reach the finals, others will go for useful experience. When we have big dreams, we forget how to value the little things, which would in this case be unforgettable moments of climbing joy. When we deal with boulders and routes, the creative tasks that are in front of us, sometimes we fail to recognise the element of art they are hiding. That is sad. Isn’t that the actual reason why we are climbing? When we do bad, we declare the boulder as ugly, we criticise the routesetters, the conditions, we just try to find excuses for a single mistake that put us out of the game.
Eddie Fowke, Langenfeld 2016
It is hard to put ourselves above the failure. It hurts really bad when all the work done to touch the stars of a World Cup was for nothing, because of just one moment of distraction, after which a foot slips, balance is lost or a hold missed. Unfortunate contact with mats hurts more from the inside.
I think a lot about my reactions and feelings during failures, both minor ones on trainings and the more serious ones on the comps. I blame myself for being inexperienced, foolish, unprepared and similar. I forget about all those heavenly sensations climbing brings me, just because I know I can do something I didn’t. All this negative energy gets spread to others to feel uncomfortable in my presence. It is simply not right, people didn’t deserve to be exposed to my frustrations.
Eddie Fowke, Munich 2016
I can again look for excuses in my behaviour and claim that I am sad because in practice it is not possible to accomplish everything i think of. But that is childish, irrational. I figured out that I have to learn how to exchange the frustration with a wide smile, by remembering the most beautiful climbing moments and let them take over my heart. Ups and downs are all around us, but when it’s time to sum up all the elements, progress is definitely an answer!
Five days are left before my second ever senior World Championship. I still have 4 climbing days to go, which I will try to use as positively as I can, but also accept the disappointments as crucial elements of the sports career!